A Fork in the Road

Too indecisive, yet opinionated.

 

Yup, I think that’s what I am. I have WAY too much on my plate, and I keep accepting more and more to do. I think what the problem is is that I’m so driven to do well in EVERYTHING I do that I can’t really decide my true fate.

 

I set goals, but, in the long run, I often wonder if those goals will be as rewarding to me as when I first began them.

 

For instance, my career choice. Teaching! I find the utmost joy in knowing that I have helped someone. I like to touch people’s lives, even in the most indistinct way. A smile in passing. A math problem that they’ll never forget. An inspirational talk that’ll hopefully change their viewpoints on life. Yet, over the years, I’ve also realized that teaching may not be the only career choice to fulfill this passion.

 

I guess you could say that I’m a little TOO well rounded.

 

I sing (or, well, used to), I involve myself in my music, I paint, I draw, I write, I teach, I cook, I sculpt. See? A lot on my plate.

 

The point is, I think I’ve come to a tiny spot in my life in which I may not know if the path that I have chosen will be right for me. As a person, I have grown to be someone that I absolutely love, and I hope that this becomes more and more reflected in my growth, but on the other hand, can I help others with what I do to love themselves as well?

 

Well, Self, we shall see….