Disappointed

Have you ever had hopes in someone so high, and seen the good (or thought you had seen) in them, and finally they disappoint you? It's an odd, almost empty feeling. For many, I often wonder when the point was when that someone finally showed their true colors. What's that ultimate moment in which your expectations come crashing down, down, down?

For me, it was that moment in which anger was flashed my way. I hate to see that in a person.

Fury. 

Frustration.

That's what was flashed my way. 

Fear (somewhat)

Sadness. 

Loss.

Is what I feel (felt?)

But through it all, my standards have risen to an ultimate high. I don't need someone that makes me feel this way. I don't deserve it as a matter of fact. My heart is mine, and until there is someone that is enough of a really really good (stable) person, this heart is going to stay under lock and key. 

....And that's final....(I hope)

Mother Earth

I am the earth

Flowers

Sky

Wind

Sea

Fire

Grass

Wood

My children roam freely and wildly

We bask in the glory of the sun together, and yet I am unseen

I am all around you, breathing, flowing, lashing, dripping, circling

My scent is of lilies, new rain, soil, sand, water

I can not help but to see you, hope for you to feel my presence around you

I watch with a caring eye; protective, powerful, helpful

Walk through my rainforests of vines and orchids

Feel the humidity on your skin

Smell the musk of the ground beneath your feet

Hear the birds chirping, water sinuously running, animals speaking

Taste the fruits of my labor, hanging from a nearby tree - passion fruit, banana, cacao

See my beauty all around you, yet only feel me and hope